i need a hug.
August 2010
Did you know when you dream about a person, that person went to sleep thinking of you? Did you know when the person you like looks at you and then looks down, they’re crazy about you? Did you know that when a person looks at you directly in the eyes they love you more than you think? Did you know when that person looks at you a lot they can’t live without you? Did you know when they leave, they say bye too much because they don’t want to let you go?
<3
A teenage girl about 17 had gone to visit some friends one evening and time passed quickly as each shared their various experiences of the past year. She ended up staying longer than planned, and had to walk home alone. She wasn't afraid because it was a small town and she lived only a few blocks away. As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked God to keep her safe from harm and danger. When she reached the alley, which was a short cut to her house, she decided to take it. However, halfway down the alley she noticed a man standing at the end as though he was waiting for her. She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for God's protection. Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped round her, she felt as though someone was walking with her. When she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man and arrived home safely. The following day, she read in the newspaper that a young girl had been raped in the same alley just twenty minutes after she had been there. Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have been her, she began to weep. Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help this young woman, she decided to go to the police station. She felt she could recognize the man, so she told them her story. The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to see if she could identify him. She agreed and immediately pointed out the man she had seen in the alley the night before. When the man was told he had been identified, he immediately broke down and confessed. The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was anything they could do for her. She asked if they would ask the man one question. Diane was curious as to why he had not attacked her. When the policeman asked him, he answered, "Because she wasn't alone. She had two tall men walking on either side of her." Amazingly, whether you believe or not, you're never alone. Did you know that 98% of teenagers will not stand up for God? Repost this as Love vs. Sex if you truly believe in God. PS: God is always there in your heart and loves you no matter what and if you stand up for him he will stand up for you. I bet 93% of the people that read this wont repost it. I read this and reposted it. Well I bet you read this note because of the title, didn't you?
(via cathrel, x-pockylowpop)
today i saw one of my idols. we went and visited great grandma for her birthday tomorrow. she will be 103. that’s not all; she still walks by herself at times; she still remembers those of us she had seen before; she told us she prays and says grace for us every night; she still walked out the front to wave us off; she was telling us that it’s amazing we make the effort to visit her. she is truly one of the most amazing, inspiring people you could know. and tomorrow is her birthday, i honestly hope she makes it to many more. she said she still feels well. i love her and hope she will be around for a couple of years still <3
Day 06 – A song that reminds you of somewhere
time of your life reminds me of every new years eve we used to spend at my parents friends house. because we would sing that and other songs every year.
Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event
any song from a band i’ve seen live reminds me of the concert, if they played it there.
Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to
alot. any by short stack, for our hero, the sleeping lions, a sleepless melody, the monster goes rawrr, paramore, a few from heroes for hire, nevershoutnever. you get the drift haha. then theres ones like bubbly, graduation, time of our life etc.
Day 09 – A song that you can dance to
you can dance to any song. all the songs by the monster goes rawrr are easy to dance to :)
Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep
there isn’t one. i just put my playlist on quietly and fall asleep to it.
Day 11 – A song from your favorite band
planets. sleepwalker. #ihaveablackbeltinawesome. believing it. crush. misery business. can’t stand it. i don’t have a favourite band.
Day 12 – A song from a band you hate
i don’t know the name of their songs. haha
Day 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasure
ummm idk.
Day 14 – A song that no one would expect you to love
well most the songs i listen to. one of the people in my class looked at my music on my usb and was like :| you like rock type of music. yeah i listen to heaps of music. theres not much mainstream i listen to.
Day 15 – A song that describes you
mixed up by miley cyrus.
Day 16 – A song that you used to love but now hate
can’t think of one :/
Day 17 – A song that you hear often on the radio
i rarely listen to the radio. i don’t like mainstream music and thats pretty much all that gets played on there non-stop. so many times a day. i just listen to my phone instead.
Day 18 – A song that you wish you heard on the radio
any by one of my favourite bands.
Day 19 – A song from your favorite album
i don’t have a favourite album. but i’ll say counting the stars.
Day 20 – A song that you listen to when you’re angry
ignorance by paramore.
Day 21 – A song that you listen to when you’re happy
#ihaveablackbeltinawesome by the monster goes rawrr.
Day 22 – A song that you listen to when you’re sad
family tree by a sleepless melody.
Day 23 – A song that you want to play at your wedding
i actually have no idea. at all. but i don’t have to think about a wedding for a while anyway.
Day 24 – A song that you want to play at your funeral
something that i like. i don’t want a song that i hate played at my funeral. thats all the thought i’ve given that.
Day 25 – A song that makes you laugh
umm, can’t think of any.
Day 26 – A song that you can play on an instrument
yourbiggestfan by nevershoutnever on ukulele :D
Day 27 – A song that you wish you could play
all of the songs by my favourite bands. and all my favourite songs.
Day 28 – A song that makes you feel guilty
there aren’t any i can think of at the moment.
Day 29 – A song from your childhood
shania twain songs. i remember sitting in my aunty’s car when i was with her, windows down, breeze blowing and me and her singing along to every one of her songs when we were together.
Day 30 – Your favorite song at this time last year
can’t remember. i have never had a favourite song though, at any one time i have heaps of favourite songs.
Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone
there are so many.
true friend - brooke.
simply because shes a true friend and no matter what will be there for me <3
Day 04 – A song that makes you sad
i miss you by miley cyrus, among many others.
the first time i heard that song a couple of years ago had tears in my eyes. its so cute but sad.
goal: by the end of the year i won’t have a fake smile on my face everyday. everyone will know the real me; and can choose to accept me for who i am not what i pretend to be. i will be positive, i will do what i want when i want. i will love everyone until they do something to me personally. all i need is help to get to this, someone to help me go from what i pretend around so many to what i really am.
Day 03 – A song that makes you happy
there are so many.
any by the monster goes rawrr, the sleeping lions, short stack, etc
any with a great memory associated with it really.
Day 02 – Your least favorite song
the ones i hate but the lyrics get stuck in my head.
theres so many of them though!
worst mood
and nothing will fix it.
right now i’m sitting on my bed listening to taylor swift, and i can feel like i am about to break into tears and start thinking too much.
but emilee and kailyn are on the floor next to me, i am not even talking to them. i hate this mood.
the truth is i don’t know if i’d be able to tell someone everything even if i wanted to and they asked and cared what’s truly wrong with me.
i have made myself forget alot that makes me upset. it doesn’t help to hold on to it.
but i’d love it if someone actually asked how i was and if anythings wrong and doesn’t just accept the automatic i’m fine/alright and nothings wrong. because the truth is i won’t say it straight away. i won’t tell you straight up that i’m not actually happy. that my smiles are fake.
someone please show you care enough to see through my walls and start to break them down. ask me what’s truly wrong. don’t accept the first easy answer to give.
if i actually start to matter one day, if you actually start to care about me one day; please let me know. that way i know there’s someone who cares.
Day 01 – Your favorite song
i don’t have one favourite. i have plenty. theres favourites for each mood i’m in.
the songs that can make me smile no matter what. the songs that describe my mood exactly. the songs that have a million great memories to them. they are all my favourite.
next 30 days.
Day 01 – Your favorite song
Day 02 – Your least favorite song
Day 03 – A song that makes you happy
Day 04 – A song that makes you sad
Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 – A song that reminds you of somewhere
Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 – A song that you can dance to
Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 – A song from your favorite band
Day 12 – A song from a band you hate
Day 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 – A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 – A song that describes you
Day 16 – A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 – A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 – A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 – A song from your favorite album
Day 20 – A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 – A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 – A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 – A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 – A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 – A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 – A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 – A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 – A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 – A song from your childhood
Day 30 – Your favorite song at this time last year
Reblog if you want just one cute message in your ask box today.
(via lightupmyeyes)
& once again I’ll receive nothing.
i need someone who i can talk to. tell everything to. who i can trust 100%. someone who can help me when i’m down and can make me smile and laugh again. someone who makes me forget why i was upset. someone who helps me move towards a better future, instead of thinking back to the past. someone who stops me from thinking way too much into everything. someone who i can be myself with. someone who will help me make this decision i am trying to make. someone who will be there for me all the time, no strings attached.
i need a new outlook on life. i have started to try be happier. i have avoided thinking too much this past week, apart from one night. i believe thats a good starting effort. i am deciding how to get my haircut. i am deciding if i will get a piercing and where. i am deciding how i will show people who the real me is. i am deciding who i will let in. i am deciding who i will leave behind. i am deciding a lot in the next few months.
when i’m sixteen. i will be happier. i won’t look back on the past. i will know who i can trust and who i can’t. i will have people know who the real me is. i will have a new look. i won’t be afraid of what other people think about me. i will be able to have a real smile on my face everyday.
if you care please tell me so i know who to trust and who not to; so i know who to turn to and have someone truly care not someone pretend they care about me.
i don't know how to talk to you.
i don’t know how to start the conversation i need to have with you. i don’t have the strength to share this with you. i need YOU to understand though. i need you to ask if i am really fine or alright when i say that because most of the time the truth is i am not. i need to talk to you. but i don’t know how. ask me and i may tell you if you can start to break down the walls i have built around me.
can't help this feeling
can’t help this feeling of being replaced, of being invisible, of not being acknowledged, of not having you in my life anymore. i feel like i’ve lost you and you don’t even care. you left me without a word and now we just stare. you don’t say a word to me anymore and it hurts. so much. i just wish it didn’t hurt this much, that i could forget about you as easily as you seem to have forgotten me.
i have an English assignment due tomorrow. i know what to write i just don’t know how to word it. some subjects i do really good on the written assignments but some i cant think of what to write. i know english i just don’t know what to put for this. i’m not going to study poetry when i’m older; i’m not going to be a journalist and writing feature articles. this is just a post to avoid writing it. haha
i hate how things go from so good to so bad in a matter of seconds. i hate the days you have fun until you get home and just feel like lying in bed crying. i hate the people who make you feel terrible like that.
i am so excited for when we have the house built. i will get my own room again for the first time in 10 years. i can have the freedom to decorate how i want. i’m going to have a chandelier and fairy lights because i want them. i will have a window seat because i want it. i will have mirrors because i want them. i will have writing and posters on the walls because i want it.
music and bands.
mainstream music these days really annoys me. they don’t have a true meaning behind it from the artist. they have someone write it for them then just sing it. alot of it sounds the same.
unsigned artists have some of the best music, but they don’t get noticed because they aren’t Justin Bieber or Miley Cyrus or Eminem or someone well known. they put so much more effort into their music than the people who get radio play. the write their own songs, put so much time into talking to their fans, and do everything they can to have more listeners and be the best they can.
this is a common thing i bring up at home. how unsigned artists are alot more determined than mainstream artists but not many agree.
i listen to alot more unsigned bands than mainstream or semi-known bands. the musics better the concert experiences are different, it’s more like someone just going on a stage and playing for a room of friends. the bands have more freedom to do what they want with their music and doesn’t have a label company telling them what and what not to do.
and then there’s the feeling you get when a ban you have supported since they have had only 100 fans becomes big. even if the band has 500 fans you still get that feeling. you become a part of the band. a part of you gets lost with their music, their journey as a band. you know what they have been through to get to where they are. and you get to know that YOU helped them get there. by supporting them and telling people about them and buying their music and their merch and attending their concerts.
inspiration. the person i look up to.
my great grandma is one of the most amazing people on this earth.
Olive Webber. she’s 103 this month and still alive. until she turned 101 she never believed she was old and didn’t get anything to help her move around until she was this age. the year she turned 100 she competed in the ‘seniors idol’ and came 3rd or 4th but was by far their oldest competitor. she participated in plays until she was 102. she went to the beach for swims fairly often until it started being too much for her late last year. she sings while her friend at the retirement village plays piano for her. i never get to see her much. but i will miss her so much when she leaves. i love her. and she is an amazing inspiration for me.
completely random
but i felt like sharing it
i found out a while ago something about my mums past that some people would literally die for it to happen to them, now or for the past years.
when my mum was in her teenage years she used to go to somewhere at pine rivers where bands would play, i can’t remember what it was called. she used to go every weekend to see a particular band. she liked the drummer of the band but nothing ever happened between the two of them. instead the singer of the band liked my mum. he gave her a letter and asked her out. but she kept the letter but rejected him. the singer is now a well known artist around the world. he’s keith urban. i have never listened to any of his music. and my mum doesn’t listen to much either.
when he asked her out i bet she never thought one day he would be this famous. it just goes to show that anything can happen if you work hard enough. you start off small then get bigger and better.
